Shutdown.

I've been feeling pretty awful for the past several days. It felt like my body wanted to shut down -- dunno, can't express it properly. I know I've been painfully hungry but when I do get to eat, I don't really feel like it. It's like my stomach cannot digest efficiently anymore. Then afterwards, I feel so bloated and groggy that I just want to sleep. But when I'm lying down, I still feel nauseous that I want to sit up. Yet I'm unable to stay upright for long because I have this massive headache and I want to go to sleep so at least I won't be conscious of the pain. So what am I to do???

At least today, I don't feel as bad as the previous days. I'm hoping I can stay up on my feet longer so at least I can finish some chores. God/dess knows my tasks here at home never ends.

Even in my dreams, my mom's hoarded stuff haunts me. Today I dreamt I was back at my homeroom in the sixth grade. I was looking through the drawers when I found stuff with my mother's name on it. It was strange to find her things at my school, so I just decided to take all of it home with me. There was even more in the other drawers.

The other part of my dream I recall: I was here at home taking a shower in my bathroom, then realized I wasn't even in my tub while I was doing it. I also noticed the mirror on the wall was gone.

April Fool's.

My life is turning into a joke, it's not funny anymore. I don't even want to wait for the punchline. I bet it will kill me.